Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Cover Reveal:The Space Between by Victoria H. Smith
Title: The Space Between
Author: Victoria H. Smith
Expected release date: April 2, 2013
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Age Group: New Adult
Cover Designer: Okay Creations
Cover reveal organized by: AToMR Tours
Links to find the book:
Goodreads
Book Trailer:
Book Description:
When Drake started the night at his father’s campaign fundraiser, he never imagined he’d end it being conned into buying drugs on the West Side. Losing high-stakes poker has its consequences, but he’d repeatedly face them just to hear Lacey Douglas sing. Drake sees Lacey light up the stage, and he has to have her. But his intentions for being on her side of town turn out to be the reason he can’t.
Chicago native Lacey has dreams of the opera, but life has its obstacles. Lacey has come to know her hardships as part of living in the real world and accepts them fully. When Lacey meets the intense and invigorating Drake, a fire is lit inside her, unleashing those dreams again.
Two paths that should have never crossed prove to create the exact pairing the other needs. But when their worlds take time to catch up, everything they have is tested. Finding the space between the two sides that challenge them will be hard, but it’s the only place that will keep them together.
The Space Between is a new adult contemporary romance.
About the author:
Victoria H. Smith has a Bachelor’s Degree in Political Science. She puts it to good use writing romance all day. She resides in the Midwest with her Macbook on her lap and a cornfield to her right. She often draws inspiration for her stories from her own life experiences, and the twenty-something characters she writes give her an earful about it.
In her free time, she enjoys extreme couponing, blogging, reading, and sending off a few tweets on Twitter when she can. She writes new adult fiction romance in the sub-genres of science fiction, urban fantasy, and contemporary, but really, anywhere her pen takes her she goes.
Author Links: Blog | Facebook | Twitter | Goodreads
Book Feature & Excerpt/Giveaway: The Life and Times of the Heir and the Keeper by Etta King
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The Life and Times of the Heir and the Keeper
by Etta King
About
The Author:
The Author:
Etta
King is the author of the Caspian University novels, a series
chronicling the life and times of a group of wealthy teens who
inevitably discover the various flavors of college drama. Etta writes
from her personal experiences as a college co-ed and as the product
of an all-girls prep school. Here she witnessed the very
eccentricities and foibles which she depicts in her novels.
King is the author of the Caspian University novels, a series
chronicling the life and times of a group of wealthy teens who
inevitably discover the various flavors of college drama. Etta writes
from her personal experiences as a college co-ed and as the product
of an all-girls prep school. Here she witnessed the very
eccentricities and foibles which she depicts in her novels.
In
a home filled with books, it was no surprise that Etta grew to be an
avid reader, and that translated into writing when she was thirteen.
She wrote simply for the fun of it, whatever would come to mind, from
fantasy to thriller to romance, and shared her stories with her
friends.
In
2010, at twenty-one and just as she was about to graduate from
college, Etta began writing "The Life and Times of Elizabeth and
the Duchess." This was a story which had first taken shape in
2008, after her freshman year, but had been put on hold. With
graduation looming, Etta recalled the characters, and the events
which had inspired them, and took pen to paper. Literally, as Etta
enjoys writing out her stories before typing them out. Soon the first
book had been completed and the series was born.
"The
Life and Times of the Heir and the Keeper," comes as the sequel
to "Elizabeth and the Duchess," and serves as the second
semester of these teens' college saga. Etta is currently working on
the third book, in what will be an eight-part series.
Etta
King lives with her family in Westchester, New York.
Genre:
Young Adult Fiction
Young Adult Fiction
Publisher:
CreateSpace
CreateSpace
Release
Date: 11/28/12
Date: 11/28/12
They
say college is a lot of things; a haven, a four-year party, the place
you met the girl – or guy – of your dreams. What they don’t
tell you is, the best part of college is the drama YOU bring to the
table! After all, that dirty little secret, that not-so-little white
lie, and those texts you wish you could erase from cyberspace can’t
stay hidden forever. At CU, someone’s always watching, and you
better hope there isn’t a camera phone on hand when you get caught.
say college is a lot of things; a haven, a four-year party, the place
you met the girl – or guy – of your dreams. What they don’t
tell you is, the best part of college is the drama YOU bring to the
table! After all, that dirty little secret, that not-so-little white
lie, and those texts you wish you could erase from cyberspace can’t
stay hidden forever. At CU, someone’s always watching, and you
better hope there isn’t a camera phone on hand when you get caught.
It’s
the Spring Semester, but it’s not all fun in the budding sun for
Jon and Franz. Follow them as they delve through the politics of
secret societies, the inevitable drama of the F-word (that’s
FAMILY, for the uninitiated), creepy Resident Advisors, creepier
residents and girls who don’t always say what they mean. Who
wouldn’t need two months to recuperate?
the Spring Semester, but it’s not all fun in the budding sun for
Jon and Franz. Follow them as they delve through the politics of
secret societies, the inevitable drama of the F-word (that’s
FAMILY, for the uninitiated), creepy Resident Advisors, creepier
residents and girls who don’t always say what they mean. Who
wouldn’t need two months to recuperate?
Cheers!
And GL!
And GL!
Excerpt:
Jonathan
I
woke up to the sound of my phone vibrating on the floor. I scooted
out of bed, trying not to wake Elizabeth as I went to pick it up. I
missed it and I saw four missed calls. All from Chadwick. Crap, it
was six thirty-seven. I called him back and made my way to my
bathroom, while it rang.
woke up to the sound of my phone vibrating on the floor. I scooted
out of bed, trying not to wake Elizabeth as I went to pick it up. I
missed it and I saw four missed calls. All from Chadwick. Crap, it
was six thirty-seven. I called him back and made my way to my
bathroom, while it rang.
“Yeah,
that’s okay, I’m home. Look, Jon, I’m going to say this just
this once and then I won’t say it again.” I got an ominous
feeling and leaned against the sink, ignoring the cold marble.
that’s okay, I’m home. Look, Jon, I’m going to say this just
this once and then I won’t say it again.” I got an ominous
feeling and leaned against the sink, ignoring the cold marble.
“Okay…”
“Judith,”
he began and I bit down on my groan. If ever I was tired of hearing
one person’s name in a day.
he began and I bit down on my groan. If ever I was tired of hearing
one person’s name in a day.
“I
don’t care what it is you did, I really don’t.”
don’t care what it is you did, I really don’t.”
“I
didn’t do anything.”
didn’t do anything.”
“Whatever.
Just don’t do anything else.”
Just don’t do anything else.”
“What?”
I couldn’t help the irritation creeping into my voice.
I couldn’t help the irritation creeping into my voice.
“Nothing
else, okay? Just don’t lead her on, don’t mess with her.”
else, okay? Just don’t lead her on, don’t mess with her.”
“What
the hell do you think I did?”
the hell do you think I did?”
“Honestly?
I think you hooked up with her and never called her back. Or maybe
you did and she didn’t understand how you worked.” How
I worked??
I think you hooked up with her and never called her back. Or maybe
you did and she didn’t understand how you worked.” How
I worked??
“Jesus,
Chad, seriously?”
Chad, seriously?”
“Look,
I’m not judging you.”
I’m not judging you.”
“Are
you drunk?”
you drunk?”
“I’m
not
judging you, I just want you to leave her alone, okay?”
not
judging you, I just want you to leave her alone, okay?”
I
was silent; what the absolute fuck had Judith said to Chad? What was
her problem anyway? Three weeks was all it had been, for God’s
sake.
was silent; what the absolute fuck had Judith said to Chad? What was
her problem anyway? Three weeks was all it had been, for God’s
sake.
“I
didn’t do anything to her, Chad.”
didn’t do anything to her, Chad.”
“So
why is she calling me and crying?”
why is she calling me and crying?”
I
massaged my temple and shook my head.
massaged my temple and shook my head.
“Because
she’s Judith, Chad. Because I haven’t told her about Elizabeth
and I, and I don’t feel like calling her and skipping that
conversation, so I’d rather just not. Because yes, she called me,
called my house, sent me messages, but all I want is for her to calm
down and stop acting like I’m Judas. Because yeah, we’re friends
and she feels that means she has exclusive rights to my number.
Because…” My God, I could go on and on.
she’s Judith, Chad. Because I haven’t told her about Elizabeth
and I, and I don’t feel like calling her and skipping that
conversation, so I’d rather just not. Because yes, she called me,
called my house, sent me messages, but all I want is for her to calm
down and stop acting like I’m Judas. Because yeah, we’re friends
and she feels that means she has exclusive rights to my number.
Because…” My God, I could go on and on.
“Not
because you hooked up with her?”
because you hooked up with her?”
“She
told you that?”
told you that?”
“You’re
not saying you didn’t.”
not saying you didn’t.”
“This
is not about hooking up. I don’t understand why she’s so anxious
to talk to me, but that’s pretty much it. I’m just not ready.”
is not about hooking up. I don’t understand why she’s so anxious
to talk to me, but that’s pretty much it. I’m just not ready.”
“You’re
an ass, Jon. You’re my friend, but you’re an ass.”
an ass, Jon. You’re my friend, but you’re an ass.”
Giveaway:
$30 Amazon
Gift Card & 1 Signed Paperback
$30 Amazon
Gift Card & 1 Signed Paperback
Book Promo: The Juice Lady's Big Book of Juices and Green Smoothies by Cherie Calbom
It is time for a FIRST Wild Card Tour book review! If you wish to join the FIRST blog alliance, just click the button. We are a group of reviewers who tour Christian books. A Wild Card post includes a brief bio of the author and a full chapter from each book toured. The reason it is called a FIRST Wild Card Tour is that you never know if the book will be fiction, non~fiction, for young, or for old...or for somewhere in between! Enjoy your free peek into the book!You never know when I might play a wild card on you!
Today's Wild Card author is:
and the book:
Siloam (January 8, 2013)
***Special thanks to Althea Thompson for sending me a review copy.***
ABOUT THE AUTHOR:
Cherie Calbom, MS, is the author of The Juice Lady’s Turbo Diet, The Juice Lady’s Living Foods Revolution, and Juicing for Life, which has nearly two million books in print in the United States. Known as “The Juice Lady” for her work with juicing and health, Cherie has taped HealthWatch for CNN and scores of TV and radio shows and has appeared in Shape, First for Women, Women’s World, Men’s Journal,Vogue, Quick & Simple, Marie Claire, and Elle Canada. Cherie earned a master’s degree in nutrition from Bastyr University, where she now serves on the Board of Regents, and has practiced as a clinical nutritionist at St. Luke Medical Center in Bellevue, Washington.
Visit the author's website.
SHORT BOOK DESCRIPTION:
Juice and smoothies are sweeping the nation! Why? They’re fruity, delicious, easy to make, and packed with powerful nutrition. It’s no wonder everyone is enjoying the convenience and great taste of these healthy meal and snack alternatives. Bring your blender or juicing machine into the twenty-first century with the most updated versions of Cherie’s recipes to be found anywhere—more than just refreshment, these recipes enhance your energy and boost your mental and physical health.
List Price: $17.99
Paperback: 208 pages
Publisher: Siloam (January 8, 2013)
Language: English
ISBN-10: 162136030X
ISBN-13: 978-1621360308
AND NOW...THE INTRODUCTION AND A FEW GREAT RECIPES! CLICK ON RECIPE PICTURES TO SEE THEM LARGER:
Introduction
MORE AND MORE celebrities, athletes, and people of all ages and walks of life are turning to juicing and green smoothies to lose weight and to improve their overall health. Why? Because they have found that juicing is changing their lives—giving them more energy, better sleep, stronger immune systems, brighter skin, and a younger appearance. It’s even helping their bodies heal from a variety of ailments. Below is a testimony I received recently from someone who has read my books and come to me for counseling.
It’s been about a month since you last spoke with me. You may not remember me because you talk with so many people. But I will never forget you. I told you about the more than fifty pounds of fluid I had retained. Using both natural and medical prescriptions, I had not been able to get rid of that fluid. I have also not been absorbing my food. You told me not to worry about my diet because I already had a healthy one but to add a green juice drink with every meal. About three weeks before I spoke with you I started drinking pure cranberry juice every day, and that was helping with the fluid. Over the three weeks I lost fifteen pounds, but I would bounce back and forth with my weight. When I added the green juice drinks, it put my body in high gear. I have lost thirty pounds. The water weight is literally just falling off of me.
You have no idea how much better I am feeling. I have energy and can physically work. I have not had energy or felt good since my last baby was born twenty-five years ago. I have not been able to push my body to work for the last five years. Now I am splitting firewood and stacking it. I shoveled rock for our drainage system in our yard. I can clean my own house again. Yesterday I cleaned house and stacked two cords of firewood. If you haven’t stacked firewood, let me tell you, that’s a lot of wood. And I can walk again. For the last two years I have been fighting just to walk up and down my short driveway, feeling totally exhausted and in pain afterward. Now I am easily walking a mile and have energy to burn. I feel great and have no pain when I’m finished. And my fibromyalgia pain is almost gone.
For the last five years I have been fighting to stay alive.
Now for the first time in years I feel alive. I am no longer on Lasix and have cut back most of my nutritional supplements. I was taking over $500 worth of supplements a month, and it was bankrupting us. Last year my doctor told me to apply for disability because my body was dying. I could no longer function. The naturopathic physician I used to work for told me that my husband and I needed to accept the fact that my body was dying. He told us to purchase better health insurance and prepare for the worst. I wish he could see me now.
Long story short, Cherie, I am so grateful to you for taking the time to talk with me. I know you probably hear stories like mine all the time, but for me it’s new and life saving. Thanks for pointing me to the path of life. You have been one of God’s blessings and a lifesaver in the most literal sense of the word.
I hope her story encourages you to juice every day. With more than four hundred delicious recipes, The Big Book of Juices and Green Smoothies can help you change your life, just as juicing has changed the lives of thousands of people who have adopted this plan for themselves—people just like me. My life changed years ago when I discovered the healing, vitality-producing power of freshly made juices and raw and whole foods.
Sick, Tired, and Completely Toxic
I sat by the window in my father’s home in Colorado staring at the snow-topped mountains in the distance, imagining that people were enjoying the hiking trails; perhaps someone was climbing the mountain that day. It was early June and a beautiful, sunny Colorado day. I wished I had the strength to just walk around the block. But I was too sick and tired—I could barely walk around the house. I had been sick for a couple of years and just kept getting worse. “Would I ever be well again?” I wondered.
I had to quit my job when I turned thirty. I had chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia that made me so sick I couldn’t work. I felt as though I had a flu that just wouldn’t go away. I was lethargic and constantly feverish with swollen glands. I was also in nonstop pain. My body ached as though I’d been bounced around in a washing machine.
I had moved back to my father’s home in Colorado to try and recover, but not one doctor could tell me what I should do to improve my health. So I browsed around some health food stores, talked with employees, and read a few books. I decided that everything I’d been doing was tearing down my health rather than healing my body. When I read about juicing and whole foods, it made sense. So I bought a juicer and designed a program I could follow.
I began my health program with a five-day vegetable juice fast. On the fifth day my body expelled a tumor the size of a golf ball. I was totally surprised that in five days this amazing result could take place. I never did have the tumor tested because I was too taken back and overwhelmed by the event. I just flushed it away.
I then continued to juice every day and ate a nearly perfect diet of live and whole foods for three months. There were ups and downs throughout. On some days I felt encouraged that I was making some progress, but on other days I felt worse. Those days made me wonder if good health was an elusive dream. I didn’t realize I was experiencing detox reactions—no one had told me about them. I was very toxic, and my body was cleansing away all the stuff that had made me sick.
But one morning I woke up around 8:00 a.m., which was early for me, without an alarm sounding off. I felt like someone had given me a new body in the night. I had so much energy I actually wanted to
exercise. What had happened? This new feeling of good health and vitality had just appeared with the morning sun. Actually, my body had been healing all along; it just had not manifested fully until that day. I felt such a wonderful sense of being alive! I looked and felt completely renewed.
With my juicer in tow and a new lifestyle fully embraced, I returned to Southern California and my friends a couple weeks later to finish writing my first book. For nearly a year it was “ten steps forward” with great health and more energy and stamina than I’d ever remembered. Then all of a sudden I took a giant step back.
The Night I’ll Never Forget
The Fourth of July was a beautiful day like so many others in Southern California. I celebrated the holiday with friends at a backyard barbecue. That evening we put on jackets to insulate against the cool evening air and watched fireworks light up the night sky. I returned just before midnight to the house I was sitting for vacationing friends, who lived in a lovely neighborhood not far from some of my family members. After such a full day I was in bed shortly after I arrived at the house.
I woke up shivering some time later wondering why it was so cold. I rolled over to see the clock. It was 3:00 a.m. That’s when I noticed that the door was open to the backyard. “How did that happen?” I thought as I was about to get up to close and lock the door. That’s when I saw him. Crouched in the shadows of the corner of the room was a shirtless young man in shorts. I blinked twice, trying to deny what I was seeing.
Instead of running out the open door, he leaped off the floor and ran toward me. He pulled a pipe from his shorts and began beating me repeatedly over the head and yelling, “Now you are dead!” We fought, or I should say, I tried to defend myself and grab the pipe.
Finally it flew out of his hands. That’s when he choked me to unconsciousness. I felt all life leaving my body. In those last few seconds I knew I was dying. “This is it, the end of my life,” I thought. I felt sad for the people who loved me. Then I felt my spirit leave. It felt as though it just popped out of my body and floated upward. Suddenly everything was peaceful and still. I sensed I was traveling through black space at what seemed like the speed of light. I saw what looked like lights twinkling in the distance.
But all of a sudden I was back in my body, outside the house, clinging to a fence at the end of the dog run. I don’t know how I got there. I screamed for help with all the energy I had. It was my third scream that took all my strength. I felt it would be my last breath. Each time I screamed, I passed out and landed on the cement. I then had to pull myself up again. But this time a neighbor heard me and sent her husband to help. Before long I was on my way to the hospital.
Lying on a cold gurney at 4:30 a.m., chilled to the bone, in and out of consciousness, I tried to assess my injuries, which was virtually impossible. When I looked at my right hand, I almost passed out again. My ring finger was hanging on by a small piece of skin. My hand was split open, and I could see deep inside. The next thing I knew I was being wheeled off to surgery. Later I learned that I had suffered serious injuries to my head, neck, back, and right hand, with multiple head wounds and part of my scalp torn from my head. I also incurred numerous cracked teeth, which led to several root canals and crowns months later.
My right hand sustained the most severe injuries. Two of my knuckles were crushed to mere bone fragments and had to be held together with three metal pins. Several months after the attack I still couldn’t use my hand. The cast I wore, which had bands holding up the ring finger that had almost been torn from my hand and various odd-shaped molded parts, looked like something from a science fiction movie. I felt and looked worse than hopeless. The top of my head was shaved, and my eyes were totally red and swollen. I had a gash on my face, a weird-looking right hand, terrorizing fear, and barely enough energy to get dressed in the morning.
I was an emotional wreck. I couldn’t sleep at night—not even a minute. It was torturous. I was staying with a cousin and his family, so there was no need to worry about safety from a practical point of view, but that made no difference to me emotionally. I’d lie in bed all night and stare at the ceiling or the bedroom door. I had five lights that I kept on all night. I’d try to read, but my eyes would sting. I could sleep only for a little while during the day.
But the worst part was the pain in my soul that nearly took my breath away. All the emotional pain of the attack joined with the pain and trauma of my past to create an emotional tsunami. My past had been riddled with loss, trauma, and anxiety. My brother died when I was two. My mother died of cancer when I was six. I couldn’t remember much about her death—the memories seemed blocked. But my cousin said I fainted at her funeral. That told me a lot.
I lived for the next three years with my maternal grandparents and father. But Grandpa John, the love of my life, died when I was nine. That loss was very hard. Four years later my father was involved in a very tragic situation that would take far too long to discuss here, but to sum it up—it was horrific. He was no longer in my daily life. I felt terrified about my future. My grandmother was eighty-six. I had no idea how much longer she would live. The next year I moved to Oregon to live with an aunt and uncle until I graduated from high school.
As you can probably imagine, wrapped in my soul was a huge amount of anguish and pain—it felt like gaping holes in my heart. It took every ounce of my will, faith, and trust in God; deep spiritual work; alternative medical help; extra vitamins and minerals; vegetable juicing; emotional release; healing prayer; and numerous detox programs to heal physically, mentally, and emotionally. I met a nutritionally minded physician who had healed his own slow-mending broken bones with lots of vitamin-mineral IVs. He gave me similar IVs. Juicing, cleansing, nutritional supplements, a nearly perfect diet, prayer, and physical therapy helped my bones and other injuries heal.
After following this regimen for about six months, what my hand surgeon said would be impossible became real. My hand was fully restored and fully functional. He had told me I’d never use my right hand again, and that it wasn’t even possible to implant plastic knuckles because of its poor condition. But my knuckles did indeed re-form primarily through prayer, and my hand function returned. A day came when the surgeon told me I was completely healed, and though he admitted he didn’t believe in miracles, he said, “You’re the closest thing I’ve seen to one.”
It was a miracle! I had a useful right hand again, and my career in writing was not over as I thought it would be. In the end it seemed my inner wounds were the most severe and the hardest to heal. Nevertheless, they mended too. I experienced healing from the painful memories and trauma of the attack and the wounds from the past through prayer, laying-on of hands, and deep emotional healing work.
I call them the kitchen angels—the ladies who prayed for me around their kitchen tables week after week until my soul was restored. It seemed I cried endless buckets of tears that had been pent up in my soul. It all needed release. Forgiveness and letting go came in stages and was an integral part of my total healing. I had to be honest about what I really felt and be willing to face the pain and toxic emotions confined inside, and then let them go. Finally, one day after a long, long journey—I felt free. A time came when I could celebrate the Fourth of July without fear.
A New Beginning
When I look back to that first day in the hospital after many hours of surgery, it’s amazing to me that I made it. My hand was resting in a sling hanging above my head. It was wrapped with so much stuff it looked like George Foreman’s boxing glove. My face had a big cut running down the left side, and my eyes were red—very little whites. A maintenance man came into my room for a repair and did a double take. He asked if I’d been hit by a truck! He was serious. I felt like I had. As I lay there alone with tears streaming down my face, I asked God if He could bring something good out of this horror. I needed something to hang on to.
My prayer was answered. Eventually I knew my purpose was to love people to life through my writing, juicing, and nutritional information— to help them find their way to health and healing. If I could recover from all that had happened to me, they could too. No matter what anyone faced, there was hope.
Juice Recipes for Health and Healing
In the pages that follow, you’ll discover a wide variety of juices for every possible need and occasion. I have basic juice recipes for those who are getting started and want something simple. There are yummy fruit juice recipes for those with picky palates who want the sweet taste of fruit. Green juices are my favorite and offer the most nutrition; you’ll find a big selection of green juice recipes to choose from.
Check out the chapter on juice remedies and rejuvenators for juice combos that address what ails you. And I think you’ll really like the gourmet juice chapter that has a lot of unique combinations and delicious drinks. There’s also the green smoothie chapter with one hundred smoothie recipes and great combinations. And I also included my old favorites from The Juice Lady’s Turbo Diet and The Juice Lady’s Living Foods Revolution. Have fun trying some new and unusual combinations. There’s a lot to choose from with more than four hundred recipes.
And if you’re struggling with your health, there is hope for you, no matter what health challenges you face. Never, ever give up. There’s a purpose for your life, just as there was for mine. You need to be healthy and strong to complete your purpose. To that end, The Juice Lady’s Big Book of Juices and Green Smoothies can help you live your life to the fullest. My hope is that this book of delicious recipes will truly inspire you to juice each and every day and that you will experience firsthand the healing, rejuvenating power of fresh juice and green smoothies.
Release Day Blitz: Shattered Circle by Linda Robertson
Book Excerpt:
The main door opened and Meroveus, Advisor to the Excelsior and currently their esteemed guest, entered the suite. “She is back?” he asked.
“That is what I’m told,” Goliath answered. “If you’re referring to Ms. Alcmedi, that is.”
“I am. Is she here?”
Leaning on one elbow, Goliath reclined. “She required a shower.” He wanted to give his nose a quick pinch to indicate she’d reeked of the scummy edges of Lake Erie, but he refrained. He was a Master now; taunting disdain was no longer acceptable.
Mero headed for the iron-studded door. Goliath cleared his throat.
In mid-reach for the knob, Mero stopped. His hand fell to his side and he turned on his heel. “I have been disrespectful. Forgive me, Haven Master.”
His sardonic grin flashed fang. “Does urgency always make you thoughtless?”
“I assumed that Menessos was still lord of these chambers, and that she was with him in the rear chamber.”
Goliath sat up, placed his elbows on his knees, and clapped his hands together. “Hear me, Advisor Meroveus, and do not forget my words: The former Haven Master may have extended you many courtesies, but barging into his private chamber—especially if you think Ms. Alcmedi may be attending him—would be particularly dangerous.”
Mero glanced at the main door as if he would leave, but there was uncertainty in his expression.
“To be honest,” Goliath added as he stood, “I have not yet made claim to these rooms, and, as you have assumed, the former Quarterlord is in the rear chamber. However, my Erus Veneficus has her own suite.” He used the formal title of the court witch for impact.
Mero blinked.
It seemed to Goliath that the other vampire had not considered that in declaring this the Cleveland haven and Goliath the master of it, Persephone would by default become Goliath’s court witch. Her services were now his to command.
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There were many prophesies concerning the Lustrata. The one that the vampires were most concerned with claimed she was incredibly valuable to them. Because of this, they could not dare to kill her. But they could do much without killing her. The question was: What would interfere with her destiny, and what wouldn’t?
Menessos would know the most about it, so Goliath resolved to follow his Maker’s lead. “Dabbling in the destiny that Menessos, the witch, and the Domn Lup share is a hazardous pastime, Mero. I strongly suggest you stay the hell out of their way.”
Mero quoted the prophesy:
“Lustrata walks,
unspoiled into the light.
Sickle in hand,
she stalks through the night
wearing naught but her mark and silver blade.
The moonchild of ruin, she becomes Wolfsbane.
“According to my interpretation,” Mero concluded, “she must be marked.”
Menessos breathed deep. Releasing it, he said, “Your interpretation is bullshit.”
Mero’s brows rose in surprise.
Goliath struggled to keep a laugh from getting out.
“The Witch Elders Council will not stand for their Lustrata to be marked by the Excelsior,” Menessos said. “Would you risk a war?”
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Opening the closet there, Beverley dug straight to the back where the item she wanted was stored. Her little hands grasped the cold sides of the rock-board and she pulled. It was heavy and the cast on her arm made the task more difficult. She lost her grip on the slate—the bottom edge dropped onto the top of her foot.
Stifling her yelp of pain, she regained her grasp and silently laid it flat on the floor before shutting the closet door. Crouching between the bed and the wall so she couldn’t be seen from the doorway, she studied all the strange symbols painted across the surface. She’d heard Seph and Celia talking about this. Great El’s slate.
They’d said that a person could talk to ghosts with this . . . and that Seph had used it to find her mother.
But how does it work?
Beverley ran her hands over the surface. Her fingers traced the lines of a symbol here, there. They tingled like the fine lines of her fingerprint weren’t so fine after all.
She studied her index finger, then compared it to her other hand’s index finger. If one tingles . . . what does two do? She picked two symbols she liked that were side by side and put her fingertips to the slate. Carefully, slowly, she traced both. The tingling began immediately and resonated through her hands and into her wrists. Suddenly, some force grabbed her hands. She gasped and tried to pull away, but it just squeezed tighter.
It dragged her fingers along to one symbol, then on to another. She watched in horror as all her fingers were pulled across the board, each finger moving independently. The more symbols she traced, the more the tingling increased. It became like a fire inside her skin, swelling up through her thin arms, crackling through the broken bone.
It hurt. It hurt so bad. She drew a breath to scream—
—and then it felt good.
It wasn’t hot, merely warm. It wasn’t warmth like summer, though, not something a thermometer would show. This was warmth of another kind. The kind only a heart could feel. She felt so . . .
Loved.
A shimmer flashed across the surface of the board.
She whispered, “Mommy?”
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Excerpt from SHATTERED CIRCLE:
Liyliy, a vampire-harpy, had tried to kill me a few hours ago, and the struggle left me exhausted and sore. That was the reason I was still abed at nearly two in the afternoon. When my satellite phone blared the opening riffs of Ozzy Osbourne’s “Bark at the Moon,” it startled me, instantly reminding me about all the sore muscles I had.
Mid-reach, I stopped. That was Johnny’s ringtone.
He had tried to kill me, too.
My hand shook as my finger jabbed the Answer button.
“Hello?”
“Red . . . I’m so sorry.” Johnny’s voice was barely audible.
I sat up and deliberated whether to play deaf and repeat my “hello” as if I hadn’t heard him. I considered being a jerk and hanging up. I even contemplated ripping him a new one.
Instead, I remained silent.
Two days before, minutes after I’d performed the forced-change spell on him and his loyal pack mates, Johnny had attacked me. He’d always retained his manmind while transformed, but that last time he didn’t—he’d been pure animal. The only reason I was still among the living was because I’d pumped ley line energy into him like a human Taser.
“Red?”
He’d frightened me to my core. The unshakeable faith I’d had in him had been shattered by an emotional earthquake. Damage was done. My fear felt like betrayal.
But . . .
Could going through the forced-change spell repeatedly have an undesired effect?
No. I was sure the whole terrible incident could be pinned on the fact that my mother, Eris, had revoked the tattooed bindings she’d placed upon Johnny eight years ago. He suddenly had access to all the power and potential she’d locked away from him. That was surely a disorienting, difficult situation.
I’d helped him dig up the clues, helped him achieve that goal. Hell, I’d even been a part of the reversal spell. So some responsibility for the consequences was mine to bear.
“Persephone?”
He rarely used my full given name; he usually called me Red, as in Little Red Riding Hood to his Big Bad Wolf. Or Seph like nearly everyone else. I had to respond.
“I’m here.”
“Then say something.”
Pushing back the covers, I stood and began to pace. “I don’t know what to say.”
He paused. “Can you forgive me?”
I wasn’t sure.
Part of me said I couldn’t allow his attack to be a personal issue because of the fateful trio that Johnny, Menessos, and I forged by binding ourselves magically. The other part argued that no matter the circumstances, attempted murder was very damn personal.
It all happened because Johnny had surrendered to his destiny. His unique ability to transform at will made him the Domn Lup—king of the wærewolves. It was a position with power, prestige, and perks such as a Maserati Quattroporte. Johnny knew his royal place was unavoidable, but he’d fought it and hid from it a long time. He’d finally pushed forward because it was beneficial to our triple union, but kinghood was costing him his dream of being a rock star.
It had been my fear that he’d lose who he was in the course of this alliance of ours. More than ever, it seemed this fear was being borne out.
On the other corner of our triangle was Menessos. He now bore two witches marks—mine, of course. That made him my servant. When Heldridge, his former right-hand man, learned of my authority over Menessos, he tattled to the highest vampire authority, the Excelsior. To protect us against the personal grudge of the truthseeing vampire-harpies sent by VEIN to make formal inquiry, Menessos had allied himself at great personal expense with someone dangerous—a “nameless” guy I had aptly dubbed Creepy.
The secrets he’d wanted to hide from VEIN—secrets even I didn’t know—were apparently safe, but our little who-marked-whom secret was out. Menessos lost his haven and his status as Northeastern Quarterlord. Johnny had accepted great power and lost a lifelong dream. Menessos had lost great power and accepted serious personal risk. It didn’t seem fair.
And what about me?
In the last several weeks I’d learned that I was the longprophesied Lustrata, the Witches’ Messiah, She Who Walks Between Worlds, She Who Will Bring Balance, blah blah blah. As this news spread throughout the nonhuman communities, some scoffed and some believed. I was fine with the scoffers; it was the believers who were dangerous. They wanted to know if I truly possessed the power that accompanied those titles. Yeah, I was a magnet for nasties who either a) wanted me dead to be sure I didn’t have that power, or b) wanted to try to force me to wield power for their gain.
I guess I’d accepted the endless complications of my status and was well on my way to losing all scraps of naïveté.
At that thought, I stopped pacing. As I stared into the nothingness of a darkened corner, it felt like my innocence had slipped from my grasp and I was watching it skitter across the floor, waiting for it to come to a stop so I could reclaim it.
I wasn’t sure it was worth the effort to look for it. Or perhaps it would be impossible to find if I made the effort. Maybe it had rolled into some crack, never to be seen again.
I heard Johnny breathing through the phone.
It wasn’t Johnny who had rescued me last night.
When I defeated Liyliy, Menessos had been there to bring me to the haven. Sure, Menessos had a hand in creating the monster she now was. And it was he who had imprisoned her, creating her need for revenge. But it was me and my marks upon him that had brought her to Cleveland. When she pursued me from the haven—according to the Offerling I’d spoken to—Menessos had sent everyone out to search for me.
Had Johnny even known I was missing?
It was shitty of me to compare the two men in my life, but I couldn’t help myself. Though Menessos had drunk my blood numerous times, he hadn’t tried to kill me.
Yes he did! He nearly killed you not long after you first met.
We were strangers then, I argued with myself. Now, we know each other well.
Better, perhaps, than you should. . . .
Defiantly, I ignored my conscience’s scolding. I will not regret what I did last night. During the predawn hours, reeling from my encounter, I’d kissed Menessos.
Fine, but clearly you were able to forgive him.
That was true. Considering this, I felt hope. I sighed heavily into the phone. My whispered answer was, “In time.”
“There’s so much I need to tell you.” Johnny’s voice was raw, and the rev of an engine punctuated his words. I wondered where he was going. And I wondered if I should tell him about kissing the vampire.
It hadn’t been a peck.
When our lips had touched, I felt the promise and power of a more intimate union. He’d definitely felt it. It wasn’t only the power of the marks between us that had been kindled.
“I don’t know where to begin,” Johnny said.
His voice drew me out from my memory of a passionate moment with another man. Guilt swelled around my heart . . . but not remorse. What am I going to do?
About the Book:
JUST YOUR AVERAGE MEGA-WITCH. . . .
It’s tough being a modern woman, but Persephone Alcmedi has it worse than most. Being the prophesied Lustrata has kicked her career as a witch into high gear, and juggling a wærewolf boyfriend who is about to become king of his kind and a seductive vampire who bears her magical Mark isn’t easy either.
Still, Seph’s beloved foster daughter, Beverley, is causing more trouble than these two men put together. The young girl’s been playing with a magical artifact that’s far more dangerous than she realizes. Now Seph must summon help from a mystical being so potent that even vampires fear him . . . and the cost of his aid may be more than she’s willing to pay. Seph, Johnny, and Menessos face threats from all sides—and a few from within. Will the forces of destiny cement their tenuous supernatural union, or shatter it forever
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Linda Robertson is the mother of four wonderful boys, owns three electric guitars, and is followed around by a big dog named after Bela Lugosi. Once upon a time she was a lead guitarist in a heavy metal cover band and has worked as a graphic artist. She still composes and creates art, when time permits. Linda currently writes and rocks in northeast Ohio. Visit her at AuthorLindaRobertson.com and @authorLinda
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Monday, January 28, 2013
Book Promo: The Skinny Budget Diet by Linda Goff
It is time for a FIRST Wild Card Tour book review! If you wish to join the FIRST blog alliance, just click the button. We are a group of reviewers who tour Christian books. A Wild Card post includes a brief bio of the author and a full chapter from each book toured. The reason it is called a FIRST Wild Card Tour is that you never know if the book will be fiction, non~fiction, for young, or for old...or for somewhere in between! Enjoy your free peek into the book!You never know when I might play a wild card on you!
Today's Wild Card author is:
and the book:
Siloam (January 8, 2013)
***Special thanks to Althea Thompson for sending me a review copy.***
ABOUT THE AUTHOR:
Linda Goff was obese for more than 20 years. She was told by a professor at one of the top journalism schools in the nation that her “look” wasn’t professional enough for television. When Linda left the university, she believed she had wasted four years of her life and thousands of dollars on an education that she could never use because of her size. God had other plans.
After her 155-pound weight loss, Linda quietly began writing again. She was hooked. A blog grew into a talk show on the CTN network and a weekly newspaper column - reaching thousands of readers every week with her message of healthy weight loss. Now Linda speaks with groups around the country and runs a comfort food test kitchen with her family and friends as official “tasters.” To get her latest low-cal comfort recipes, visit www.theskinnybudgetdiet.com.
SHORT BOOK DESCRIPTION:
Get the strategy that was created in the kitchen of a 300-pound wife and mother who couldn’t afford another expensive weight loss plan. There was no more room in the family budget for ordering diet foods and supplements through the mail, no money to buy ongoing weekly support, and no way to pay for a high-priced weight loss surgery. Linda Goff had to find budget-friendly way to lose half of her body weight and keep it off for good. The Skinny Budget Diet was born.Read the secrets Linda shared with the Today Show, the Doctors, on the cover of Woman’s World Magazine, the Huffington Post, and Prevention Magazine. Inside this book, she will give you the step-by-step tools that allowed her to lose 155 pounds with sanity instead of starvation. You can eat normal meals with your family, drop the weight, and lower your monthly food budget.
Product Details:
List Price: $16.99
Paperback: 256 pages
Publisher: Siloam (January 8, 2013)
Language: English
ISBN-10: 1621360016
ISBN-13: 978-1621360018
AND NOW...THE FIRST CHAPTER:
Wasting Time on a Growing Waist
I WROTE THIS BOOK for you. And throughout these chapters you and I are going to get very close. There will be no such thing as TMI. I am happy to provide “too much information” on every page of this book if it will give you your life back. Want to hear about the roller coasters I couldn’t fit into or the lawn chairs I broke when I weighed three hundred pounds? You got it. I’ll even give you the blow-by-blow of how I shaved my legs every day without the ability to see my feet.
It may not be pretty stuff, but I think it is important for you
to understand that there is no such thing as “too broken” or “too
far gone.” And while I’m not a fan of beating myself up over bad
choices, you can learn from my twenty years of mistakes. I wasted thousands of dollars trying to buy my way out of obesity. It left me with a heavier body, heavier debt, and some heavy lies in my head: “I really shouldn’t eat the rest of these cookies. Oh, go ahead. You are so fat . . . what’s a few more pounds? But what if I can’t find clothes that fit anymore? This little plate of cookies won’t make any difference. You work hard. You deserve a treat.”
I wish I could claim that underlying mental scars or repressed
abuse led to my constant cycle of overeating and guilt. It didn’t. I
could tell you that I was obese because of past pregnancies and
post-baby weight. My youngest son weighed more than twelve
pounds at birth. Twelve pounds! But that wasn’t the reason for my
obesity.
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I ate when I was happy—to celebrate friends and family, to
reward myself after a stressful day of work, even to enjoy my
favorite TV shows. I ate because food tasted good. When I left my
mom’s healthy table and went to college, I gained my “freshman
fifteen” and kept on going. I can’t blame my obesity on a thyroid
problem or even a slow metabolism. I ate myself to morbid obesity through daily, unhealthy choices—each seeming so small and insignificant at the time.
There are as many reasons for overeating as flavors at Baskin-
Robbins. You may have a story that is similar to mine, or your
story may be filled with true sadness. I understand that food can
be an anesthesia to make the world seem less painful or a weapon
to keep the world a safe distance away.
It is not my intention to minimize the underlying causes of obesity. We’ll get into some of these reasons in more detail as we work through this book. At the moment simply understand that your reasons for overeating can no longer be used as excuses to stay obese. Excuses (even excuses that seem valid) won’t make you one pound lighter. They serve no purpose for good.
Two Decades of Weight-Loss “Practice”
“Honey, you have such a pretty face. Have you tried losing weight?” I’m generally not a violent person, but questions like that made me see red. If I could have lifted my foot above my waist, I would have kicked these well-meaning, skinny people in the gut . . . or the ribs . . . or whatever thin people have around their waists in the place of fat. Have I tried losing weight? You can’t be serious!
I had more failed weight-loss plans in my past than candy wrappers on the bottom of my purse. Each one had a price tag. At the time did I understand the science of losing weight? You bet. I was an obese woman living in the United States. As a group we are probably more informed about calories and exercise than the general public. Ironic, isn’t it? I’ve spent hours watching people “sweat
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to the oldies” and sculpt “buns of steel.” I have vivid memories of
spreading cream cheese on a bagel while watching Tony Horton
sell his latest exercise plan.
I think the biggest myth going is that obese Americans don’t
understand how they became overweight and have no idea how to
lose it. Here is one lie that I always told myself: “I’m so confused.
I don’t know whether to count calories, carbs, or fat.” That excuse
was a great way to start a heated debate in any crowd and kill my
dieting plans before lunch.
The results of all these failed diet attempts were damaging—not
only physically but also spiritually. I began to truly believe that:
1. Losing weight the “old fashioned way” with diet and
exercise is too hard and takes too long.
2. People who lose weight and keep it off obviously
have more willpower than I do. “Face it, Linda.
There must be something wrong your character. You
are just too weak to lose weight.”
3. Maybe it is God’s plan for me to be this big. After all,
He created each one of us to be unique and different.
I’m supposed to be three hundred pounds.
Most of us are obese because we eat more food than our bodies
can burn, and we’ve been doing it for years. Mystery solved! What’s not as easy to understand is the role that the brain plays in this behavior. I’ve tried to honestly examine the choices I made at three hundred pounds, and the constant dialogue that ran through my brain. I think some of my daily thoughts about food may sound familiar to you. And so I present . . .
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Looking at my “Day in the Life of” menu, I don’t know whether
to laugh or cry. It is a true account of the crazy, internal battles of
an obese woman. Being this honest may not be easy for you, but
here is what I learned by writing down my daily menu:
1. I had no idea at the time how many calories I was
eating. If you quizzed me as I was brushing my teeth
before bed, I would have guessed that I’d eaten about
three thousand calories, not a button-popping fivethousand-
plus in just one day. I’d skipped the Coke,
potato chips, ranch dressing, and whipped cream.
That’s healthy, right?
2. Most of my food was coming from restaurants and
not grocery stores. This is an important thing to
realize . . . both in regard to maintaining a healthy
weight and a healthy wallet. More on this later.
3. I often ate while doing other things such as driving,
working, and watching television.
4. Frustration about dieting and weight loss was often
my first thought of the day and the last thing in my
head before falling asleep. So many precious hours
that I gave away to my obesity.
5. My size was changing my life: the clothes I wore, the
people I ate with, and the intimacy I had with my
husband.
As I was starting diet number forty-seven (or maybe it was diet
number forty-nine), I caught an interview with NBC weatherman
Al Roker in which he talked about his gastric bypass surgery. It
was a fascinating idea to me. You just make your stomach smaller
and force yourself to eat less food. If you screw up, you throw up.
Genius!
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I was now a woman on a mission, searching the web and reading
every magazine article I could find with details on the procedure.
The before and after pictures for celebrities such as Carnie Wilson, Roseanne Barr, and Al Roker were amazing. They had lost hundreds of pounds in a short amount of time. Gastric bypass surgery was going to be my answer, my quick escape from morbid obesity.
My Gastric Bypass Obsession
I contacted a surgical weight-loss center in 2002 and began the
long, pre-surgical process that included a consultation with a psychologist, an exam with my local doctor, and blood work. My primary physician went over the risks for gastric bypass surgery in great detail, and I’m sure that I smiled and nodded back when she told me that:
1. The procedure has a death rate that some doctors
estimate to be as high as one in one hundred. What
went through my head: “Those are still pretty good
odds, right?”
2. The surgery can lead to vitamin and mineral deficiencies
requiring daily supplements and B12 shots at
least once a week. My thoughts: “Maybe Flintstone
vitamins will come out with B12 in a gummy fruit.
That would be cool.”
3. There is a syndrome called dumping where your
food can move too quickly through the small intestine
causing nausea, diarrhea, and vomiting. Inside
my head: “Did she just say something about a dump?
What?”
There was a big disconnect between the information given to
me by my doctor and what I was focused on. When you believe
that gastric bypass is your only ticket out of morbid obesity, the
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risks don’t matter. I was willing to live with almost anything to be
thin . . . especially if the solution didn’t require a lot of willpower
on my part.
From all of my research I knew that qualifying for gastric bypass
surgery wasn’t going to be easy. I had to show my insurance company that I was unhealthy enough to need the procedure but healthy enough to live through the surgery. My weight wasn’t a problem. With a BMI (body mass index) between 47 and 48, I met that requirement. A healthy BMI range is between 18.5 and 24.9. I also had to show a history of failed dieting attempts. That was an easy requirement after two decades of being obese.
I was happy (practically giddy) the day I mailed my huge stack
of forms back to the surgical weight-loss center. Clearance from my doctor and psychologist? Check. Blood work proving that I didn’t have thyroid issues? Check. The name and policy number for my insurance company? Check. I was cleared to have the surgery and ready for takeoff.
Unfortunately my insurance company didn’t agree. My calls to
the surgical weight-loss center became more frequent as the weeks went by. A very patient lady in the admissions department gave me updates about her discussions with my insurance company. Even with gallbladder disease, occasional chest pains, and a scale at three hundred pounds, my insurance company said I didn’t have enough risk factors to justify the surgery. I wasn’t diabetic— yet. I didn’t have high blood pressure or breathing problems—yet. Basically I was too healthy.
From Little Control to Out of Control
The day I received the final no from my insurance company is
one I will never forget. I was crushed. I believed my insurance
company had just sentenced me to a lifetime of morbid obesity. I
was so angry inside I gave up on the idea of ever trying to diet or
exercise. If I needed to be “sick” to qualify for the surgery, fine.
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Diabetes is common in my family, so I’ll just keep eating. Maybe
my insurance company will pay for the procedure if I weigh three
hundred fifty pounds. And I’m sure I will get the green light if I
weigh four hundred pounds.
Looking back, my daily plan to add another hundred pounds
was nearly flawless. It could have been called a personal weight-
gain plan. I ignored food labels, lived in the drive-through lane,
and ate whatever was put in front of me. I even stopped going to
the doctor so that I could skip that awkward “let’s get your weight” moment. I went three years without a yearly exam or checkup of any kind.
There are very few “before” pictures of me during this time. I
remember sitting in my car and going through stacks of developed
pictures. Before letting anyone else see the pictures, I would
throw away any photos showing my body (especially from the side). When my boys look back at their childhood photo albums, they are going to wonder if their mother ran off with the circus during this period of their lives. My kids loved disposable cameras and knew that they could take pictures of their dad, the dog, even our half-dead cat, but never, never take a picture of mom.
I was hiding from my appearance, and I honestly have no idea
how much I weighed at my heaviest. I do know that I didn’t fit in
airplane seats, roller-coaster seats, theater seats, or even the seats
at some of my favorite restaurants. How is that for irony? I was
wearing a size 4X, and buying clothes was a horrendous experience.
There are a few things in the world that I’ve always found impossible: folding a fitted sheet, safely clipping my cat’s claws, and finding size 26 clothes that made me “look skinny.” At three hundred pounds, shopping for jeans was an aerobic activity that often left me sweating. I’d walk into the dressing room, turn away from the mirror, and do the dance.
Do you know the one? You start by jumping up and down to
get the denim around your lumpy parts. Follow that up by lying
flat on the ground to get the jeans buttoned. If you are successful
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with the first two steps, it’s time for the final challenge. You must
get back on your feet without popping a button or ripping out the
seams in your seat.
It was generally in these dignified moments that I asked myself,
“When did I get this large? What am I going to do when even the
plus size clothes are too small? How did I let myself get this out of control?”
I enjoy living in a small town, but the closest mall is more than
one hour away. I remember being so relieved when a local clothing store expanded their sizes beyond a 3X. It can be terrifying when
your body is too large to wear anything in the store. Forget about
dressing fashionably, I was just worried about dressing at all.
When My Bottom Hit Bottom
The stages of obesity are strangely similar to the stages of grief. If
you’ve struggled with your weight for a long time, you may see
yourself in one of the phases below. Because I’m such an overachiever, I had to hit all five stages before my bottom hit bottom. It was a twenty-year spiral down.
1. Denial: “I’m not obese. I just have a lot of curves.
This can’t be happening . . . not to me. Gaining a few
extra pounds is simply a part of getting older, right?
I don’t have the metabolism I had in high school, but
it’s not like I have a serious problem.”
2. Anger: “It’s not fair. If my spouse (children, friends,
coworkers, and so on) didn’t sit around eating
so many high-calorie foods, I wouldn’t have this
problem. How could anyone lose weight with this
many temptations? They are to blame.” Once we are
in the second stage, we recognize that denial cannot
continue.
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3. Bargaining: “I know I have a problem. I’m going to
lose the weight but not today. My schedule is just
too hectic, and I’m too stressed out. I’ll start the diet
on Monday.” In this stage we want more time before
confronting the tough work we see ahead of us.
4. Depression: “Why even bother to try anymore?
What is the point of starting another diet? This isn’t
going to work anyway. I might as well eat whatever
I feel like. I’m always going to be fat.” This was
the stage for me where I gave up on weight loss and
exercise completely. I stopped going to the doctor
so I didn’t have to get on the scale, and I started
making fat jokes at my own expense to cover my
pain.
5. Acceptance: This is the hour, the minute, the second
when you finally hit bottom. If you’ve ever fought an
addiction and won, acceptance is a moment in time
you will never forget. Mine was a Saturday morning
in March 2007 at about 7:30 a.m. Oh yes, I can be
that specific.
I think the world has a misconception about acceptance. We
imagine people standing up, dusting off their hands, and working
to fix their problems. There is actually more to it than that.
Acceptance is when you are willing to put your trust in something
beyond yourself. It is an attitude that “I will do whatever it takes,
no matter how hard, because I can’t live like this anymore. I will
no longer value pride over health. I need help, and I’m not going to be afraid to ask for it.”
For the first fifteen years of my obesity I bounced from anger
(when a weight-loss plan didn’t work) back to bargaining (before I started the next diet). After being told no to gastric bypass surgery
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by my insurance company, I finally slid into the depression stage. I gave up on weight loss and ate whatever was in front of me.
When I travel and speak with groups, I get these questions more
than any other: What happened in 2007? Why did you lose the
weight? That question makes me sweat! For more than a year I
gave the safe, comfortable answer that I wanted to be healthier
and set a good example for my children. And while that is true, it
wasn’t a part of my “bottom hitting bottom” moment.
I’m going to be honest here because I believe it is important for
other married people to understand that they aren’t alone. One
weekend in March of 2007 it became clear to me that the awesome man I married couldn’t pretend to find me attractive anymore. Our intimacy was precious to me, and we were losing it. I was daring him to find me attractive at two hundred pounds, two hundred fifty pounds . . . OK, how about three hundred pounds? It was like my weight was a third person lying in our bed between us. I saw a day coming when we would live together “just as friends,” and it broke my heart.
I have to stop for a moment and tell you a little bit about my
husband. When we said our marriage vows in 1992, the man was
serious. I never worried for one minute that he would cheat on me
or want a divorce. Every day he told me he loved me. It was just a
problem that there seemed to be a lot more of me to love every day.
I don’t believe that wives should torture themselves trying to
look like models. Let’s be honest. Even a supermodel doesn’t really look like a supermodel when you take away the hour of expert makeup and the magic of Photoshop. I do think we owe it to our spouses, however, to take care of ourselves. At three hundred pounds I stopped getting haircuts, considered makeup a waste of time, and avoided mirrors like the plague. Men are visual. God created them that way, and I can only imagine how tired my husband must have been seeing me in baggy sweatpants every day.
I think my “bottom smacking” moment went back to those
marriage vows we had said to each other fifteen years earlier. My
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husband promised to love me in sickness and in health, but I was
choosing sickness over health. It wasn’t fair to him. My out-of-control eating habits and lack of exercise were hurting my marriage and slowly killing me. I was ready to lose weight like a grown-up.
Does this mean that I lost 155 pounds for my husband? No. I
didn’t lose the weight for him. I lost the weight for us. I think if
my only motivation had been to make my husband happy, my diet
wouldn’t have lasted a week. This is at the core of why we can’t nag, badger, or beg our spouses to be healthier. A guilt trip or mean comments from my husband would have sent me to the nearest buffet line with a battle cry of, “You think I’m fat? I’ll show you fat!”
Your parents may be worried sick about your growing size. Your
spouse may be secretly throwing away your snacks. Your kids may dream of having a parent who is active and involved. That alone won’t be enough. A healthier you is a gift to those who love you, but it is a gift that must be given of your own free will. Has your bottom touched bottom?
From Willpower to “Thy Will ” Power
“I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed,
you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”1
I did a little bit of research about the mustard seed. It is generally
about three millimeters in diameter and is one of the smallest
seeds on the planet. What I found interesting is that the tiny mustard seed can grow to be one of the largest plants in the garden. But in March of 2007 all I knew about mustard was that it tasted great on a hot dog.
Looking back, the mustard seed really was the perfect symbol
for where I was at in my head. Because of so many past diet failures I had almost no faith that I would ever lose weight. I had
almost no faith that God would listen to my prayers. I had almost
no faith that He could give me the strength to try again . . . almost.
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It turns out that the three millimeters of faith that I had in my
heart was enough. Actually it was more than enough.
To say that I probably didn’t look my best on that day in March
of 2007 would be an understatement. I want you to give you clear
picture of my “before” photo—no touch-ups. It was early on a
Saturday morning, so you have to picture an obese woman with
her hair standing straight up, not a lot of clothes on, and teeth that
probably needed to be brushed. My eyes were practically swollen
shut from my tears, and an occasional snot-bubble is not outside
the realm of possibility. I looked rough. God didn’t care.
He listened to me make an ugly, honest confession. I had allowed
food to be my god. It had become my comforter and my crutch.
And if you’ve struggled with your weight or with any addiction,
you know that it can be an angry and unforgiving god. The very
day I cried out and prayed for help, God (with the big, capital G)
gave me a no-thank-you muscle I never had before.
Here is the best way I can describe it. When an obese person
sees something delicious on a plate, the “must have it” meter is off the charts. A piece of warm apple pie with vanilla ice cream would be an eighteen for me on a scale of one to ten. It was impossible to resist. On the Saturday I asked God to carry me, my “must have it” meter for the foods I loved was immediately dialed down. The food still looked delicious, but I didn’t feel as if I would die if I simply said, “No, thank you.”
That feeling of strength has never left me. It gave my soul the
courage to try again even after two decades of failure. It gave my
brain the opportunity to put the science of weight loss into action.
God took my faith (the size of a mustard seed) and moved a mountain; a 155-pound mountain of fat to be exact.
If you can take away just one thing from my story, I hope it is
this. God is still in the miracle business. I learned in a very real
way that God has plans for us. Plans to prosper us and not to harm
us. Plans to give us hope and a future.2 The Father who created you and can count every hair on your head is not a deadbeat dad.
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We’re going to talk about the role that faith and support can
play for you, but our first hour class is science. Don’t worry. You
won’t need a periodic table of the elements or a Bunsen burner. In
the next chapter I want to give you some basic facts about how
our bodies work, use calories, and store fuel. There is a measurement tool called the body mass index and my own creation called a brain mass index. Both can be eye opening.
House Call With Rita Hancock, MD
House Call With Rita Hancock, MD
Question:_ I have a long list of diets in my past. Many of them
were all about restrictions and what foods I could and couldn’t
eat. Do you ever wonder what God thinks about our constant
dieting?
Dr. Hancock: I think it breaks God’s heart to see us suffer
with the consequences of obesity, but I also think it breaks
His heart to see us chronically diet and fail. Our failures just
compound the feelings of helplessness and hopelessness that
lead to emotional eating. Plus, dieting fuels our obsession
with food. It makes us want the food we think we shouldn’t
eat even more. It’s a vicious, self-defeating cycle.
Because each of us is so different (for example, for some of
us restricting dieting backfires), I don’t believe God would advocate
a single, one-size-fits-all diet for all Christians. No doubt
God would give each of us an individualized diet if we lived
in an ideal world where we could hear His instructions clearly.
Unfortunately we don’t live in an ideal world. Being that
we’re all unique, individual creations, and being that we’re all
imperfect, God gave us only general guidelines to follow in
Scripture. Let’s look at those general guidelines here:
1. You shouldn’t be gluttonous (Prov. 23:2, 20–21).
2. You shouldn’t worry about or think too much
about what you will eat (Matt. 6:25).
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3. You can eat any type of food (Mark 7:15–19).
4. You should eat to the glory of God (1 Cor. 10:31).
Let’s take a minute to talk about each of these scriptures
specifically. First, think about the meaning of gluttony. Generally
most would agree that it means, “overeating.” But how
much is too much? Are you gluttonous if you eat twenty
cookies? Most would say yes. How about if you eat two
cookies? And can you be gluttonous in ways other than
eating? The exact definition of gluttony can be hard to pin
down, if you ask me.
Second, do you worry too much about food and eating?
A long time ago I was in bondage to food. I was either on a
diet or off a diet, as if I was on a dieting roller coaster. My first
thought in the morning was either, “Feed me!” or “I hope I
don’t overeat today,” depending on which part of the roller
coaster I was on.
I most definitely thought about food more than I thought
about God. In fact, my obsessive thoughts about food actually
drove a wedge between God and me. That’s why I think it was
bondage.
Eventually, by the grace of God and using methods I discuss
further in The Eden Diet, I was able to break free from this
bondage and reestablish the right pecking order. Jesus was
Lord over me, and I was lord over the food.
Third, Scripture says you can eat any type of food. Notice
that God didn’t say carrot sticks are morally superior
to cheesecake. At the same rate Paul pointed out that just
because something is allowable, it isn’t necessarily advisable.
People with fat-clogged arteries ought to avoid eating more
than a few bites of cheesecake, lest they have heart attacks and
die. The point is, you must use common sense and eat potentially
unhealthy food in small amounts, especially if you’re
trying to lose weight or if you have unique medical needs that
require you to follow a strict diet.
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Fourth, you should eat with an attitude of thankfulness
and reverence to God. Eating with the proper attitude, that is,
without anxiety and guilt, leads to greater satisfaction with the
eating experience so that less food equals more joy.
Rita Hancock, MD, is a Christian physician with Ivy League nutrition training and studies of obese psychology. She draws upon her faith and her personal success overcoming
childhood-onset obesity to help those in bondage to food, eating, and dieting. To learn more about
Dr. Hancock’s work or purchase The Eden Diet or other resources developed by Dr. Hancock, visit her
website at www.theedendiet.com.
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